Secret that you hide

Dear bloggie, 

The past forth night, my body is not feeling well and at that moment i really don't know who to seek for but lucky I have her to answer who i should look for. After that, i decided to look for doctor because the pain and the curiosity is really unable to bear anymore. Visiting the doctor is the most killing moment for me because she keeps on give me lots of different prediction which makes me worry and scare more. After the test that she asked me to take, the outcome was not good and she tried to save my body before the hospital operates me. Now i'm maintaining and taking care properly of my health for 2 weeks because the only chance to avoid from operating me. Yesterday was the first day i start the caring mission and it was kinda suffering because i have to drink plenty of water and go toilet often. However, i believe i can handle this because is only two weeks. 13 days more to go. I'm unable to tell them because i don't want them to worry about my situation although i don't know they will worry or not. Bless that i'm getting better on this Saturday so i can go back on Sunday.

P/S: Telling lies to the one you loved is the most suffer thing but making him worry is making me unhappy.

Assessment week

Good evening baby blog,

Now i understands what does assessment week means. The week that is pack of assignment to complete everyday without fail. Currently I'm having two group assignments, one portfolio report, 3 tutorials, 3 REAP report, Go Green report and one subject to be studied for the week , on my hand. Just to remind myself that i had not complete any of the task i mention above. Gosh!!! Do i have extra time to focus on the subject that i aim to score high?? I wish there is if not i really don't know how to pass through myself on the grade. 

Well, here is my plan for the whole week and i hope it really works. 

TUESDAY : COMPLETE THE TUTORIALS + STUDY

WEDNESDAY : COMPLETE THE PORTFOLIO REPORT + GO GREEN REPORT

THURSDAY : START THE MARK 343 GROUP ASSIGNMENT *if all submitted their parts to me*

FRIDAY : STUDY MARK 333 + ACCY 200

SATURDAY : DO UNCOMPLETED TASK LEFT

SUNDAY : COMPLETE 3 REAP REPORT

Actually i feel like completing one of the tutorial because i had started with one question in the late evening and it motivates me to complete the other part but is late now and my body is getting unhealthy *pimples coming out, skin coming off, brain super active at night but not morning* terrible body.

P/S: I hate my finger nails because it makes me hard to type and is so damn noisy. Irritating indeed.

Off all IT gadgets for a night

Morning Bloggie,

Surprisingly i woke up in the morning and i got the mood to post my blog. Hmm, last night my mind was so confusing after looking at some tweets which has no clear message but maybe there are meaning behind the tweet. Somehow, an idea came out to me. The main purpose of that idea is to clear up my mind. This idea is to off all my IT gadgets. Nowadays, Y-generation is unable to get rid of the IT gadgets. It is like their daily life usage or part of the items that they must use in their life. I'm also one of the Y-generation and tried before to put away those gadgets for one day but result shows that i failed to do so. Is like people will unable to contact with me and i was wondering why should we contact everyday and not like the old days where people meet face to face to have a better communication or write letter and catch the feeling of awaiting replies from each other?? Well, world changed and we cannot control all these needs and wants.

As my mind thinks more about what will happen, i feel that those are just my predictions. I just want peace and i always ask myself why does this happen to me all the time. Hmm, is it my problem or my demand is insufficient? I tried to avoid things from happening but in the end, i failed to do so. Besides, i feel that is hard to maintain an emotion and tolerance between me and someone especially girl. Maybe i'm having princess attitude *do i?* I just feel that i need someone who is around me and can support whatever i do instead of abandon me cause i did something wrong. When you never put your feet in someones' shoe before, you won't understand why they did that. There must be something and your job is to find out the reason then only you can help to solve the problem and not hang the problem around.

Is my heart hinting me on something?

Hello Bloggie! 

I want to share something with you. My heart feels uncomfortable since last night before i sleep. Is that a symptom of over stress or study too much without resting? I don't really know how to define it cause recently i'm trying hard to score on my marks but i feel that i did not make it. Yesterday during the lecture, my lecturer announce our marks of test 1. Although my marks is above average but i don't feel happy for it. It was not what i expected. Maybe i did not put enough effort on it since i try to aim to score high but at the same time i feel thankful to my friends who helped me in this test.

I was wondering all night why my heart feel uncomfortable? Here are the reasons to be consider :

1) Nervous for the presentation

2) Worry about tomorrow's mid term

3) A makes me worry about him since he attended the big protest

4) I don't know how to act towards him

5) I got a problem and need a doctor

Goshh! I don't really know who to refer to about my problems. Sometimes i tell my friend about my problems but i usually don't agree with her explanation. I feel i'm bad cause i tell them my problem but doesn't want to accept their opinions or explanation. I rather ask the wall. Hope that the answer will appear after my presentation for today or tomorrow's mid term.