I wish someone will knock me down and take away my memories.

Sometimes i really don't have the right to angry on someone who has no relationship with me. Is the matter whether they want to tell you or not and they got their own choice since they're not anyone to you. I do feel unhappy and sad about it but i can't do anything cause we are just friend. I can say it turns to hi bye? We don't really talk much even there is something we can talk about but still you will prefer to talk to other classmate and not me. I really feel unhappy and yet i can't do anything cause this is what i deserve when i'm not in a clear position. Those moments are the most suffering moments especially the time when you're around me and we acted like stranger. I do think of ending myself from this world but what about my parents and those innocent people who cares about me? I reconsider and take over the stupid decision that i plan to do. Right now, i'm so suffocating! I wish someone will knock me down and i forget everything in my life.

I did something stupid. I cried in college today and walked back home from college. I lie to everyone that someone is fetching me home but i really walked in the dark all by myself. I don't know what is going on with me. I had been baring things for weeks and finally today i cried out all. What i really cannot think is that i walk home alone that moment, i do feel like fainting but i told myself i cannot faint and i have to reach my destiny.