i wish it could change

after visiting so many blogs, i found there's something missing in my blog. Everyone can find new friends and created their own gang but i just can feel that my gang is still the same. Is just few of us. Those who join us is just because of assignment or other reasons. Is it because we can't really communicate with them or they're hard to communicate with us? There's so much different compare to secondary and college life. I just don't know why. Last time when i'm in secondary, i use to make a lot of friends when i'm in form 2 but everything change when i'm in form 5. Form 2 life was fun, new friends. Everyday , we go to tuition together and is in a big gang. It was so fun. I love the moment we skip our classes and waste our time in parade or some cafe. I use to be very active in St.John and i join every activities that they organize. No matter my parents allow or don't , i just want to join it so they must allow me to do so. I think everything change since i started to get along with my first love. He capture my soul and spirit. He just dump it to somewhere else and everything started to change when i'm in form 5. I lost my sense to control my love problem well. I can't really maintain the relationship or make it to be stable. Unactive member is what i started to be. I doesn't want the pose that they offer to me when i'm in form 4 but i took it in form 5 is just because of the marks. In form 5 is where i started to learn bad. I regret on what i had done. If i did not went it for the first time, i won't get addicted to it and won't become more worst. Started to do the stuff that might hurt myself. There's no return when it begins. Just have to continue my life and will this continue or it can change?? I hope it can change but there's something that i don't get it. I can communicate well last time but why not for now? Everyone said that i'm cool or lc or whatever cause i don't really have topic to talk to them and i don't even know how to start it. That's the reason why i don't really want to go out with those who don't really talk cause for sure it will be a bored date among us. Lots of friends, change to few of them only. What i mean is best friends or you known it as close friends. Haix. Wishing that everything can turn back to be normal. I really don't it to be like this. I'm suffering every moment cause i lost all my emotions.

presentation . HERBALIFE

First time have presentation in INTI college and is MANAGEMENT subject. My gosh, i though that i can handle it well and yet i don't. Once i started to talk, i laugh. For no reason, i laugh a lot and i can't concentrate on  what i'm gonna present. So embarrassing. Lucky only left few people there cause the group which had present, they went home. I'm glad that they did it cause there's not much pressure when there's only few of them. The statement according to what Khye Tee said . The lecturer give comment after our presentation. He said that our group is very happy to present on what we had present cause my whole group laugh during the presentation. Started to love INTI College life.

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The us

Jerry the boss

4 sisters

My huns

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you can't turn back although you regret

somehow , if i get the chance to choose , i would choose my life staying in ipoh

although i could not do whatever i want when i'm in ipoh

but i'm enjoying to be with my friends

i enjoy making plans just to go out

i enjoy the moment when i club with you guys

i enjoy going out with my workmates

i enjoy my working time

but everything seems like changing

friends relationship had broken up

don't really think can save it back or stick it back

is just like broken into pieces of heart

how i wish there's nothing happen between us and i'm still in ipoh

taking up form 6 as it was a tough life but i think i would enjoy it

cause at least i do not need to take care of myself

i felt kinda regret that i never listen to what my parents said

and never follow what they planned for me

sorry for being stubborn

anyways , i'll not give up as they allow me to do what i want

i'll try my best not to make disappoint to those who supported me

thanks to Thinesh and Leon for accompanying me or i accompanying them??
anyways , i enjoy the night cause it's the first time i did it in penang like that
how i wish i could go back to ipoh and do that everyweek
it seems to be bad?? but i like it
I HATE L4D .
it makes me feel dizzy cause i don't like it??
when i reach home , i tot i could take my nap
instead of having a nice nap , i feel like vomiting
cause of the L4D !
ohh ya , last but not least
i watched KARATE KID <3
i wish i could watch it again with miko