Life is difficult

Last time my blog is full of stories but nowadays there is a lot of story that i want to write out. There's just like something asking me not to post it out. Sometimes i do want to post it out as i had already write out everything but in the end, i press sign out. GOSH ! My feelings day by day is changing. How i wish my feeling will not change as bad sign of ratio is increasing. When it increase, i feel sad. Nothing can help it out including myself. Don't dare to voice it out cause worry that the things will change due to people's reason. Why why why?!?!?!? Keeping all these words and sentences is really suffering. Thinking back of my past and what i did to let go of these words?? Who did i talk to?? As people says, is better to keep it when it is not so serious so that we can avoid unhappy moments but if you keep too much then something will happen some day. Ya ya, wait till it happen and nothing can be cure. My early wish towards santa was TAKE AWAY MY FEELINGS! I rather be cold blooded people who don't care about anything and won't care about people's feeling. Somehow, i miss my elder sister who use to talk to me always last time but not for now since she started to work few years back =( I don't really like to share my things around. People tell me that they can keep everything we talk about but what i know, there is no one can do this including the one who is very close to me. It makes me disappointed and what do you expect me to do? Tell you again or not? Life is getting more tough. I just know that i had move a lot of wrong step. Just don't know when my life will end so that i can reborn and if possible, i wish to move on with the right one